I know what it is like to struggle with sexual sin. I also know that life can be so much better than that. If you are struggling with sexual sin, want help and live in the Wichita, KS area feel free to email me. I will point you in the direction of some really good resources.

What sickness does for us

May 9, 2012 Leave a comment

“We get repeated chances to learn that life is not about us, that we acquire purpose and satisfaction by sharing in God’s love for others. Sickness gets us part way there. It reminds us of our limitations and dependence.”     – Tony Snow, The Blessing of Cancer

We are too easily pleased

May 8, 2012 Leave a comment

“It would seem that our Lord finds our desires not too strong, but too weak. We are half-hearted creatures, fooling about with drink and sex and ambition when infinite joy is offered us, like an ignorant child who wants to go on making mud pies in a slum because he cannot imagine what is meant by the offer of a holiday at the sea. We are far too easily pleased.”
― C.S. Lewis, The Weight of Glory, and Other Addresses


December 17, 2010 Leave a comment

Turkey. Mashed potatoes. Cranberry sauce. Pumpkin pie. Kitchen activity. Family. Conversation. Thanksgiving’s always a great time to get together with people we don’t see often. This year was a year I won’t soon forget.

One of my kids decided to interview the old folk at the table, as research for a school paper. These people are the last of the “depression generation.” Born in the ’20’s and ’30’s, they lived through the Great Depression. Electricity didn’t come to the farm until the ’50’s. Party line telephones were common – once they got a phone. They grew up eating from their own garden and butchering their own chickens and cows. Their choices were few.

These people were self reliant. They learned to fix tractors and cars. They tell stories of keeping the mailman’s car running during WWII – otherwise they just didn’t get their mail. Necessities were hard to come by; luxuries were out of the question.

Back to my kid’s paper… the question was something about the biggest change from their youth till now. The elder man in the group spoke without hesitation.

“Folks just aren’t satisfied these days,” he said.

I thought, “What?” I was expecting answers like jet travel, internet, highways, farming… just about anything other than that.


I don’t think he was talking about addiction, but it sure rang my bell. If there’s one place I’ve lived with constant dissatisfaction, it’s sex. I stepped on that treadmill back in my youth – the search for that last experience that would make the pain stop. It wasn’t conscious. The heart drove the mind. But the more sexual experience I pursued, the more my heart became dissatisfied.

Finally, I learned my way out of that. I can’t tell you the exact moment it came. It began when my secret was no longer a secret, but the actual change was more like the gradual transition from fog to clear sky. It only came after I laid down my pursuit of sexual satisfaction and started listening to others who had made the trip; started listening to and following the steps that they told me would bring healing, relying on God to give me strength. As I did that, satisfaction quietly grew.

In the words of the Apostle Paul in Philippians 4…

I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do all this through him who gives me strength.


No way would I go back to where I was.

Email me at victoryispossible@gmail.com. I promise two things: you won’t find your way out of the sexual satisfaction fog alone, and I’ll keep your contact confidential.

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What you can do to help stop sexual slavery

November 18, 2010 1 comment

I have a friend named Blake. One thing I appreciate about Blake is his passion. He has a youthful, entrepreneurial spirit with lots of ideas, all the time. Blake wrote an excellent email a couple of days ago that discusses the evils of sexual slavery and human trafficking. If you missed it, you may read it here. I’m sure you’ll see his heart for those in sexual slavery. In the end he asks the question “What do we do? Put it out of our minds? Get back to the land flowing with milk and honey? What?” Good question, Blake…

People tend to see pornography as a victimless crime. In their minds they think “What’s the big deal? I’m not actually having sex with anyone. The person in the photo posed of their own free will. It’s a free country and I’m not breaking any laws. The photo is already there so they’re not making it because of me.”

This assumption couldn’t be further from the truth.

Let me introduce you to Donny Pauling, a former porn producer. While in the porn business, he became a believer and follower of Jesus. (He left the porn business immediately after his conversion.) Donny now writes a blog and he has a posting here where you can read about the real inside scoop of the porn industry. I have to warn you… it’s graphic.

Guys, the bottom line is this… at Hope Community Church I can virtually guarantee you that one out of every two of you are looking at porn on a somewhat regular basis. Yeah, you heard me: one out of two, fifty percent! Why am I so sure? Those are the nationwide stats that come up over and over again when Christian men are anonymously surveyed. There’s no reason to believe that Hope would be any different.

You know, most men sit and think “Boy, I wish there was something heroic that I could do for the Lord. Most days it’s just get up, work, eat and sleep. If I just knew what it was, I would surely do it.” Well… there is. If you’re a believer, then I virtually guarantee that you are called by God, not by men, to take part in this battle against sexual slavery. How? Stop consuming porn. Live a sexually pure life. If God can forgive a man like Donny, then he can forgive you. You have not sunk too deep that God cannot reach you.

I know… it feels like a very small drop in a very big ocean, doesn’t it? The key you need to understand is that it is your drop. No one else can do this for you. (The Holy Spirit will help! But he needs your cooperation.) Anyway, you gotta realize that the drop we’re talking about is not water, but strong poison. It poisons your soul, your thinking, your actions, your marriage, your relationships with others, your relationship with the Father. This drop poisons your whole life.

If you have tried before to quit before but it just doesn’t seem to stick, then you need help. Usually, men don’t and can’t quit alone. They need the support of others that are quitting as well. If you’re interested in seeking out the confidential support of other excellent Christian men who are walking this quitting journey together, then email me at victoryispossible@gmail.com. It’s totally confidential. I’ll get you to help. Who knows…if we get a big enough response we’ll start a meeting at Hope!

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Blake’s email

November 18, 2010 Leave a comment

Hi Guys!

I talked to an old motorcycle racing buddy yesterday for the first time in five or six years. We talked about old times and bikes and guns and I told him I was pretty involved with my church friends and how the times had totally depleted our benevolence fund. Talked about the issues of the day, human trafficking and drugs and such. His comments reminded me of how the people of the world think based on their environment or feelings.  Jokingly I told him I wished it would be okay in the bible to snipe a few pimps seeing how human trafficking is the second most profitable illegal trade now. He has two teen aged daughters and began to get visibly enraged thinking the worst. He told a story about how a predator had hung around one daughter a few years ago. My spirit cringed.

I noticed something though…I didn’t have the hate I once would have. Yeah, I was joking about sniping pimps, but not out of hate…more out of fighting the war.

Then todays article about a 72 year old man distributing 3 million child pornography photos from here in Wichita launches and I think about praying for him. Him? Him and the millions of little kids who even today are being well…it’s really too vile to mention here. But the worst you can think is reality today. Somebody will have their 13 year old daughter stolen from them tonight in the Philippines. In three days she will be in the states under threat of death, doing the unthinkable. Her parents will scream out and pray for her.

What do we do? Put it out of our minds? Get back to the land flowing with milk and honey? What?


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The 99% Game Plan

September 24, 2010 1 comment

Part of being young is being stupid. As a boy growing up in the days of Evel Knievel, I was inspired to more than my fair share. They knew me by name in the ER. I remember one particularly nasty little altercation with the ground. Gravity was involved – as it often is. We had a trampoline in our backyard, and I was getting quite good at a full flip with a half twist. I practiced this over and over. In my mind, I was an Olympic athlete executing a perfect 10. One sunny Saturday, I decided that doing a dismount like the pros do would be just the thing to put the polish on the routine.

I started out by just jumping off the trampoline and landing on the ground with a flourish. I would try to point my toes and give a little wave of the hand, with all the snap an untrained seventh grader could muster. It was pretty pitiful. It really needed some pizazz. I don’t know when the brilliant idea of adding the flip with a half twist to the dismount struck me, but like a space rock hurling from the outer reaches, strike it did. I knew I had to try.

Well, I started practicing these little dismounts. The great thing was that the ground was even a little wet and soft. It really didn’t hurt so much landing. It looked awesome! After ten or so times, my socks were nice and wet and the trampoline was getting wetter with each try.

You know where this is going, don’t you?

The bones in my forearm made two neat, audible snaps… clear as a bell. I can still hear them today. Time slows to a crawl when you’re watching your arm bend into a neat little right angle between your elbow and wrist!

My bright idea turned out to be less than stellar. There were a lot of places I could have stopped this little event from happening. Let’s list some:

  • Don’t buy a trampoline
  • Don’t do dismounts without a spotter
  • Don’t do dismounts at all
  • Stop if the ground is wet
  • Use pads on the ground
  • Go watch TV instead
  • Be really, really skilled in falling so I can avoid breaking my arm

There were so many better boundaries that I could have put in place. By doing this crazy flip off the trampoline, I was just setting myself up for a potentially life changing injury. I was relying on my skill in the latest of moments to avert disaster.

Somehow, we think that the place to put the boundary is where our toes are right up against the line between sanity and sin, when we’re struggling to stay on the sanity side of the line.

We let all these thoughts rattle in our heads… Fantasies that inspire acting out. Desires that sooth the pain and hurt from years past. Eyes that roam. We decide that if we ever find ourselves at that certain website, or in the park, or going to lunch with that woman in accounting, or face to face with a prostitute, that we would run. If those are our only boundaries then we are kidding ourselves.

Putting our only boundaries at the end game is creating a 99% failure plan. It’s the Hail Mary play – a desperate plan in a desperate moment almost certain to fail in the long run. It’s like jumping from an airplane with no parachute with the plan of finding a soft spot to land. The reality is that temptation starts as a small seed – a little 1% thought. It’s tiny but can grow to immense tragedy in our lives.

Next article – Drastically increase your chances for success – the 1% rule.

Sexual Purity Bingo!

July 20, 2010 Leave a comment

Have you discovered Sexual Purity Bingo yet? I’ll bet you have and just don’t know it. If you know me you know that I really like chance. I like to let it all hang out. I find that the best way to get good results in the world is to be free and easy, go with the flow and let the universe bring me good things.

Why go to meetings, meet with accountability partners, set up and keep boundaries and even be honest? I know that I could do these things but isn’t attending meetings an inconvenience? Who has time for accountability anyway? The other guy probably has problems too. And whats with that messy honesty thing? Anyway, who wants to tell others the deep stuff? And boundaries, what’s that about? Come on…God has given us freedom right?

Play Sexual Purity Bingo instead!

Like mold, this problem grows in darkness. Isolating yourself works to help keep you from admitting a problem. It also helps to keep you from learning from others about healthy ways to recover.

All you do is go with the flow. Don’t plan ahead. Tear down your boundaries. Live for the moment! Don’t be honest. Don’t meet with others. All that stuff is such a waste of time and really takes the fun of slips and relapses out of my life.

Consider the prizes if you win!! Loss of relationships. Twisted thinking. Fetishes. Serious incurable illness or death! Divorce. Losing your job! Disgrace for you and your family! Distance from your kids! Living all alone! Always feeling unsatisfied. Grand prize winners could win an all expenses paid stay at a Federal grand resort for years AND a place on the community website list recognizing their accomplishment!

Here’s the rules. Print out the card below. Don’t take any action to deal with your issues. Withdraw from any relationship that confronts you to change for the better. Be patient and self centered. With a little luck you’ll be crying “BINGO” in no time!

By the way…if your game is too slow try this. Look around and give yourself a square every time you see one of these things on TV, magazines or in someone else’s life, especially celebrities. Being a part of the culture always speeds the game up. Anyway, you don’t want to miss out on the fun do you? Print out your card and get with it!

Not responsible for people actually taking this really terrible, awful, lame advice. If you see these issues in your own life please seek help. Sexual sin is no laughing matter that causes terrible human wreckage. You can contact us at victoryispossible@gmail.com and we’ll see if we can point you in the right direction.
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